Tormented

I don’t know why I can’t get her out of my head… and why I still worry so damn much about her.

Just found out that her boyfriend (the 2nd since she moved out 2 months ago) kicked her out of the house last night, threw all her stuff out in the yard.

And she already has a new boyfriend that she’s living with!

It seems like she gets farther from me every day – and I can’t shake the ghost of her.

Love?

Real quick post today, I just have this question in my mind.

How do you differentiate between love (healthy) and obsession (unhealthy)?

This question has been on my mind a lot lately, because I honestly don’t know the answer.  Is my love for Her a healthy, dedicated, strong love? Is it obsession, with all the negative connotations that go along with that? How the hell do you tell the difference, and even more importantly, what the heck do you do about it?

She’s been gone for two months today, and nearly all the (very infrequent) contacts between us have been very negative. The problem is that I still find myself wishing she were here with me, that we could find a way to repair this thing… I still miss her badly, even though it seems that since she has left my life has been SO much better… I don’t miss the drama and the fighting and the feeling insecure about myself… but I miss having my partner in crime around, the things we would do and the dreams we would talk about, about moving, buying a house, shopping for baby items, exploring new places… argh

Sometimes I hope that I will get over her soon… and another part of me never wants to.